Monday, December 15, 2008

ive been reading secret regret.

I have been reading the secret regret blog. and i want to post mine. but i dont really care if its a secret.
I regret not being honest with you. i regret pushing myself away from you. i regret the decision i made in april. i regret not keeping it. i regret not being a mother. i regret not being the best girlfriend and best friend i couldn;t have been. i regret hearing you tell me i wasnt the one. i regret coming home on saturday night to see you with someone else. i regret breaking up with you. i regret giving up on you. i regret acting like i was happy and over it. because i wasn't. i wont be for a long long time. you were my world. my everything. my best friend. we will never be able to be the way we were or have the same friendship we have. because now you keep things from me. all those girls that text you now. you hide it from me. you think it will be better if i dont know. but it makes me think more.

I had our life planned out. i wanted to graduate. move to california with you. love you. be with you. have a life together. get married. and be amazing with you. instead. i have been crying for 3 days. trying to tell myself that everything will be ok. but everything will not be okay. i will never forgive myself for the decision i made.

i should have done what i thought was best. not what i thought you wanted. maybe i would be happier. too late now. im miserable. i cant imagine happiness in my life without you.

i love you more than anything. you still hold the key to my heart. literally and figuratively.

if i take it back. will the pain go away?

go ahead and buy yourself a drink. because you know your deserving of it. go ahead and cry yourslef to sleep and think how you hate me so bad. (FTSK)

i need to get back to the city and get my mind off of my life.

suppress these feelings somewhere. maybe they will slowly go away on their own.

i need to stop thinking about you.
it hurts too much.
BEST FRIENDS.

no one will ever understand what we have.
i dont think anyone can ever understand what we have.
through all of the hurt and pain.
we will be best friends until the day we die.

Monday, December 8, 2008

secret secret life on the side.
what have i gotten myself into.
falling in love is not allowed.
never.
not here. not now.
not ever.
stop.
dont stop.
i miss the giggles.
i count down the hours until we chat again.
i look forward to waking up.
i hope you never read this.
i hope this falls apart.
it will.
it always does.
bad choices.
good choices.
no not so much.

dont fall in love.

kinda i mean i know you shouldn't fall in love with me as much as i shouldn't fall in love with you.

WHO SAYS THAT????

not but seriously.

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Sunday, December 7, 2008

bored. entertain me.

to satisfy my boredom

i now have started a tumblr.

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Regrets

Is it wrong to have regrets in life?

There have been things that I said I would never do. I did them. I regret them.

I was trying to live life in the moment.

Thats what I try to pretend my motto is.

Live in the moment.

But living in the moment leads to many good and bad decisions.

What now?

Does anyone have a great motto?

I would love to hear about it!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

"Im Coming Down. Bring Me Up. Take It Off. Lets Just Touch."- Metro Station

"New York will never be the same. Be the same without you here."- Hello Control

"An I guess we're really over. so come over. Im not over it. Late night you make me feel like im desperate. im not desperate. oh a little bit possessive. little miss obsessive. cant get over it"- Ashlee Simpson

"These are the best days of our lives. Being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right."- The Ataris

"She Goes above and beyond her call of duty. she is a slut. but ex thinks its sexy. sex reminds her of eating spaghetti. i am wasted but i am ready."- Ben Kweller

"You are the girl that ive been dreaming of."- Black Kids

"She's got the intentions of being number one. but can she handle rejection in this city of no sun. Where bricks change color faster than careers do. And few people drive away and like what's in the rear view." - chronic future

"Im Taking it all back. Thats every word that I said. For every word that you could never have the nerve to say."- Count the Stars

"For every circle of friends, theres a whore. The one who flirts and does a little more. But who's to say this is a social scene anyway." Cute Is What We Aim For

"For All of this. Im better off without you. do you regret so. your lonliness?"- The Early November

"Hello how are you. like your shoes. love your hair." - The Early November

"I Loved you while he was in you in the shower. Did in joy and ecstasy your eyes begin to water?"- Eve 6

"Walking off that stage tonight. I know what your thinking of. He stands alone because hes high on himself. but if you only knew."- Fall Out Boy

"I Wanna wake up where you are. I wont say anything at all. So why dont you slide. Im gonna let it slide."- Goo Goo Dolls

"Slipped Tripped Busted my lip and fell in love." Gym Class Heroes

"Every night I see you standing on the corner. Shaking that thing like you're playing Pop Warner. Touchdown Turnaround, everything is safe and sound. Would you turn me down if I'm not what you're looking for."- Hellogoodbye

"I've been so long in waiting. Putting my life on hold for this. Chance to live out my dreams. You think you know what I should. DO with the choices I have now. Make them benefit you." - Hoobstank

"hey, dont write yourself off yet. its only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. just try your best. try everything you can. dont worry what they tell themselves when your away."- Jimmy Eat World

"You've hid this all inside(No matter how hard you tried)You always hid behind your best disguise.You must have misunderstood this,When did you become so good at making me feel like I'm wrong?" - June

"I'm your biggest fan. I'll follow you until you love me. papa paparazzi. baby theres no other superstar. you know that ill be your papa paparazzi."- Lady Gaga

"Don't wait for tomorrow, raise your voice tonight!This hate is burning so let's watch it dieAnd when it falls,our voice will ring so loud. Don't wait for tomorrow, raise your voice tonight"- Letter Kills

To Be Continued
Direc​tions​:​
1.​Put your iTune​s on shuff​le.​
2. For each quest​ion,​ press​ the next butto​n to get your answe​r.​
3. YOU MUST WRITE​ THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTE​R HOW SILLY​ IT SOUND​S!​
4. Tag 10 frien​ds who might​ enjoy​ doing​ the quest​ionna​ire as well as the perso​n you got the note from.​

these​ are my answe​rs.​ show me yours​!​!​ :) its funny​ how some of them work out!


IF SOMEO​NE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY"​ YOU SAY?
"Like a Virgin"- Madonna

WHAT WOULD​ BEST DESCR​IBE YOUR PERSO​NALIT​Y?​
"Taking it all Back"- Count The Stars

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/​GIRL?​
"Loser"- Cute is what we aim for

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY​?​
"Nightingale"- Saves The Day

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'​S PURPO​SE?​
"Ashes"- pepper

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO​?​
"Pillmatic"- Gym Class Heroes

WHAT DO YOUR FRIEN​DS THINK​ OF YOU?
"Kill You"- Korn

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ ABOUT​ VERY OFTEN​?​
"Hey Mr.Brown"- Wheatus

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF YOUR BEST FRIEN​D?​
"Sucka Nigga" - A Tribe Called Quest


WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF THE PERSO​N YOU LIKE?​
"Breathing"- Yellowcard

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY​?​
"Certain Tragedy"- Saves The Day

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"If I Am"- Nine Days

WHAT DO YOUR PAREN​TS THINK​ OF YOU?
"Truly Madly Deeply"- Savage Garden

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE​ TO AT YOUR WEDDI​NG?​
"Dumpweed" - Blink 182

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNER​AL?​
"Reflections"- Atmosphere

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY​/​INTER​EST?​
"Make Yourself"- Incubus

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGE​ST SECRE​T?​.​
"Bathwater"- No Doubt

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF YOUR FRIEN​DS?​
"Guess What" - The Early November

WHAT'​S THE WORST​ THING​ THAT COULD​ HAPPE​N?​
"Let It Bleed"- The Used

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
"Hear You Me" - jimmy Eat World

WHAT IS THE ONE THING​ YOU REGRE​T?​
"Starts with One"- Shiny Toy Guns

WHAT MAKES​ YOU LAUGH​?​
"Shes Got Issues"- The Offspring

WHAT MAKES​ YOU CRY?
"Good Morning Sunshine"- Aqua

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRI​ED?​
"Wake Up"- Alanis Morisette

WHAT SCARE​S YOU THE MOST?​
"Crazy Amanda Bunkface"- Sum41

DOES ANYON​E LIKE YOU?
"Gang of Thieves"- State Radio

IF YOU COULD​ GO BACK IN TIME,​ WHAT WOULD​ YOU CHANG​E?​
"Drip Drip Drip"- Chumbawumba

WHAT HURTS​ RIGHT​ NOW?
"Tell The Truth"- Hello Control

WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
"Give me one good reason"- Blink 182


So. I have doen this a few times and each time I do it, its different. But for every stupid question and every song i pick it reminds me of something. My favorite one. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU REGRET? "Starts with one". It really made me think. I regret so many things, but everything that I regret in my life go back to something that I have done and regret doing. Plenty of good decisions and plenty of bad. I would recommend putting your ipod on shuffle when you feel the need to think about things. There are songs and albums and bands that correlate to every single part in my life. Always something to remind me of someone, or some time. Some good and some bad. But music makes my world go round. I wonder where we would all be if there was no music? Probably miserable and depressed.

P.S. I have some new projects in the making. Stay Tuned!!!!