ive been reading secret regret.

I have been reading the secret regret blog. and i want to post mine. but i dont really care if its a secret.
I regret not being honest with you. i regret pushing myself away from you. i regret the decision i made in april. i regret not keeping it. i regret not being a mother. i regret not being the best girlfriend and best friend i couldn;t have been. i regret hearing you tell me i wasnt the one. i regret coming home on saturday night to see you with someone else. i regret breaking up with you. i regret giving up on you. i regret acting like i was happy and over it. because i wasn't. i wont be for a long long time. you were my world. my everything. my best friend. we will never be able to be the way we were or have the same friendship we have. because now you keep things from me. all those girls that text you now. you hide it from me. you think it will be better if i dont know. but it makes me think more.

I had our life planned out. i wanted to graduate. move to california with you. love you. be with you. have a life together. get married. and be amazing with you. instead. i have been crying for 3 days. trying to tell myself that everything will be ok. but everything will not be okay. i will never forgive myself for the decision i made.

i should have done what i thought was best. not what i thought you wanted. maybe i would be happier. too late now. im miserable. i cant imagine happiness in my life without you.

i love you more than anything. you still hold the key to my heart. literally and figuratively.

if i take it back. will the pain go away?

go ahead and buy yourself a drink. because you know your deserving of it. go ahead and cry yourslef to sleep and think how you hate me so bad. (FTSK)

i need to get back to the city and get my mind off of my life.

suppress these feelings somewhere. maybe they will slowly go away on their own.

i need to stop thinking about you.
it hurts too much.

BEST FRIENDS.

no one will ever understand what we have.
i dont think anyone can ever understand what we have.
through all of the hurt and pain.
we will be best friends until the day we die.

secret secret life on the side.
what have i gotten myself into.
falling in love is not allowed.
never.
not here. not now.
not ever.
stop.
dont stop.
i miss the giggles.
i count down the hours until we chat again.
i look forward to waking up.
i hope you never read this.
i hope this falls apart.
it will.
it always does.
bad choices.
good choices.
no not so much.

dont fall in love.

kinda i mean i know you shouldn't fall in love with me as much as i shouldn't fall in love with you.

WHO SAYS THAT????

not but seriously.

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Regrets

Is it wrong to have regrets in life?

There have been things that I said I would never do. I did them. I regret them.

I was trying to live life in the moment.

Thats what I try to pretend my motto is.

Live in the moment.

But living in the moment leads to many good and bad decisions.

What now?

Does anyone have a great motto?

I would love to hear about it!

"Im Coming Down. Bring Me Up. Take It Off. Lets Just Touch."- Metro Station

"New York will never be the same. Be the same without you here."- Hello Control

"An I guess we're really over. so come over. Im not over it. Late night you make me feel like im desperate. im not desperate. oh a little bit possessive. little miss obsessive. cant get over it"- Ashlee Simpson

"These are the best days of our lives. Being grown up isnt half as fun as growing up. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually you'll finally get it right."- The Ataris

"She Goes above and beyond her call of duty. she is a slut. but ex thinks its sexy. sex reminds her of eating spaghetti. i am wasted but i am ready."- Ben Kweller

"You are the girl that ive been dreaming of."- Black Kids

"She's got the intentions of being number one. but can she handle rejection in this city of no sun. Where bricks change color faster than careers do. And few people drive away and like what's in the rear view." - chronic future

"Im Taking it all back. Thats every word that I said. For every word that you could never have the nerve to say."- Count the Stars

"For every circle of friends, theres a whore. The one who flirts and does a little more. But who's to say this is a social scene anyway." Cute Is What We Aim For

"For All of this. Im better off without you. do you regret so. your lonliness?"- The Early November

"Hello how are you. like your shoes. love your hair." - The Early November

"I Loved you while he was in you in the shower. Did in joy and ecstasy your eyes begin to water?"- Eve 6

"Walking off that stage tonight. I know what your thinking of. He stands alone because hes high on himself. but if you only knew."- Fall Out Boy

"I Wanna wake up where you are. I wont say anything at all. So why dont you slide. Im gonna let it slide."- Goo Goo Dolls

"Slipped Tripped Busted my lip and fell in love." Gym Class Heroes

"Every night I see you standing on the corner. Shaking that thing like you're playing Pop Warner. Touchdown Turnaround, everything is safe and sound. Would you turn me down if I'm not what you're looking for."- Hellogoodbye

"I've been so long in waiting. Putting my life on hold for this. Chance to live out my dreams. You think you know what I should. DO with the choices I have now. Make them benefit you." - Hoobstank

"hey, dont write yourself off yet. its only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. just try your best. try everything you can. dont worry what they tell themselves when your away."- Jimmy Eat World

"You've hid this all inside(No matter how hard you tried)You always hid behind your best disguise.You must have misunderstood this,When did you become so good at making me feel like I'm wrong?" - June

"I'm your biggest fan. I'll follow you until you love me. papa paparazzi. baby theres no other superstar. you know that ill be your papa paparazzi."- Lady Gaga

"Don't wait for tomorrow, raise your voice tonight!This hate is burning so let's watch it dieAnd when it falls,our voice will ring so loud. Don't wait for tomorrow, raise your voice tonight"- Letter Kills

To Be Continued

Direc​tions​:​
1.​Put your iTune​s on shuff​le.​
2. For each quest​ion,​ press​ the next butto​n to get your answe​r.​
3. YOU MUST WRITE​ THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTE​R HOW SILLY​ IT SOUND​S!​
4. Tag 10 frien​ds who might​ enjoy​ doing​ the quest​ionna​ire as well as the perso​n you got the note from.​

these​ are my answe​rs.​ show me yours​!​!​ :) its funny​ how some of them work out!


IF SOMEO​NE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY"​ YOU SAY?
"Like a Virgin"- Madonna

WHAT WOULD​ BEST DESCR​IBE YOUR PERSO​NALIT​Y?​
"Taking it all Back"- Count The Stars

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/​GIRL?​
"Loser"- Cute is what we aim for

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY​?​
"Nightingale"- Saves The Day

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'​S PURPO​SE?​
"Ashes"- pepper

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO​?​
"Pillmatic"- Gym Class Heroes

WHAT DO YOUR FRIEN​DS THINK​ OF YOU?
"Kill You"- Korn

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ ABOUT​ VERY OFTEN​?​
"Hey Mr.Brown"- Wheatus

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF YOUR BEST FRIEN​D?​
"Sucka Nigga" - A Tribe Called Quest


WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF THE PERSO​N YOU LIKE?​
"Breathing"- Yellowcard

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY​?​
"Certain Tragedy"- Saves The Day

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"If I Am"- Nine Days

WHAT DO YOUR PAREN​TS THINK​ OF YOU?
"Truly Madly Deeply"- Savage Garden

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE​ TO AT YOUR WEDDI​NG?​
"Dumpweed" - Blink 182

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNER​AL?​
"Reflections"- Atmosphere

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY​/​INTER​EST?​
"Make Yourself"- Incubus

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGE​ST SECRE​T?​.​
"Bathwater"- No Doubt

WHAT DO YOU THINK​ OF YOUR FRIEN​DS?​
"Guess What" - The Early November

WHAT'​S THE WORST​ THING​ THAT COULD​ HAPPE​N?​
"Let It Bleed"- The Used

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
"Hear You Me" - jimmy Eat World

WHAT IS THE ONE THING​ YOU REGRE​T?​
"Starts with One"- Shiny Toy Guns

WHAT MAKES​ YOU LAUGH​?​
"Shes Got Issues"- The Offspring

WHAT MAKES​ YOU CRY?
"Good Morning Sunshine"- Aqua

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRI​ED?​
"Wake Up"- Alanis Morisette

WHAT SCARE​S YOU THE MOST?​
"Crazy Amanda Bunkface"- Sum41

DOES ANYON​E LIKE YOU?
"Gang of Thieves"- State Radio

IF YOU COULD​ GO BACK IN TIME,​ WHAT WOULD​ YOU CHANG​E?​
"Drip Drip Drip"- Chumbawumba

WHAT HURTS​ RIGHT​ NOW?
"Tell The Truth"- Hello Control

WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
"Give me one good reason"- Blink 182


So. I have doen this a few times and each time I do it, its different. But for every stupid question and every song i pick it reminds me of something. My favorite one. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU REGRET? "Starts with one". It really made me think. I regret so many things, but everything that I regret in my life go back to something that I have done and regret doing. Plenty of good decisions and plenty of bad. I would recommend putting your ipod on shuffle when you feel the need to think about things. There are songs and albums and bands that correlate to every single part in my life. Always something to remind me of someone, or some time. Some good and some bad. But music makes my world go round. I wonder where we would all be if there was no music? Probably miserable and depressed.

P.S. I have some new projects in the making. Stay Tuned!!!!

random

I keep seeing/meeting people. The first thing they say is "I know you from Union Square" I have heard that one too many times. If I had a quarter for every person who said that to me. I would be really fucking rich. But I don't. Instead I have myself some Captain Morgan's and a girls night out on the town.

smells like winter

every year when it starts to get cold i remember high school.
i dont know why. maybe its because i went to boarding school in vermont. and it was always cold up there.
i miss vermont.
its been too long since i have been back there.

I miss NYC much more though.
There is always somewhere to go.
No matter what time it is.

I LOVE IT.

jelly belly jelly beans and other things

My Favorite flavor by far is the buttered popcorn.
I dont really care if everyone thinks its gross. I think its delicious!
What's your favorite flavor of jellybean.
Burnt Marshmallow is good, although real burnt marshmallows are kind of gross.
Has anyone seen the "recipes" they have on their website? www.jellybelly.com.
I am not exactly sure how a buttered popcorn and a blueberry make a blueberry muffin, and a dr pepper with a cherry does not make cherry cola, they would need a coca cola flavored jelly bean which would be gross. There Shouldn't be more than one lemon flavored jelly bean, and what is the real difference between a berry blue and blueberry jelly bean, other than the color?
The cappuccino flavor? enough said.
The fruit salad recipe is silly.
They need to come up with more flavors, and better ones at that.
I have tried all of the silly recipes they have and none of them are good.
Why do they have a margarita flavor?
They should make an alcoholic line of jelly beans, ones that mimic every alcoholic drink, and infused with alcohol, that way you can get drunk by eating jelly beans.

my biggest issue is the banana split. It shouldnt include 6 flavors. Who wants to have 6 flavors in their mouth at once. If it could be narrowed down to Banana, chocolate pudding, and french vanilla it would be fine and maybe throw a strawberry jam in there, to add some tang to it.

YUCK TO GRAPEFRUIT.
YUCK YUCK TO LICORICE. (i pick them out and throw them away)

Does anyone remember that drink called Orbitz, with the gross little squishy things in it. I think they discontinued it, and good thing at that. It was disgusting.
Popular candy from the 90's
Bottle caps.
Warheads. (actually were good)
charleston chews
Bubble Jug
Giant Jawbreakers
Push Pops.
Band aid gum.
Ring Pops.
Pop Rocks
BUbble Tape.
Fun Dip.
Mambas.
Gobstoppers.
Shock tarts.
Butterfingers.
Runts.
Gummi Bears.
Pixie Sticks.
Sour Patch Kids.
PEZ.


If anyone remembers anything that should be added to the list feel free to comment!

judgement day

Has anyone ever noticed that Americans are overly judgemental?
I can't even deny the fact that I am not judgemental.
I judge people everyday.
People judge me everyday.
But I don't really think that it's the proper way to go about life.
But I can't help it, most people can't.
First impressions are actually just first judgements.
You meet someone, and you assume hundreds of different things about them.
Based on their hair, eyes, skin, shoes, clothes, location.
Everyone always has something to say.
So what now?
Do I continue to be judgemental?
Or do I make a severe attempt to stop?

NYC is filled with some of the most judgemental people, as well as LA.
Two cities in the world, that probably have the most judgemental people on the planet, all crammed into two little cities.
I love the city, but when I walk down the street I see people.
I like her hair.
I like her shoes.
I like his shirt.

I wonder what they are saying about me.
The real question is.
Do I care?
NO. not at all.
It amuses me when people shoot me dirty looks.
Who the fuck are you? grilling me?
Just another person in the city.
Lack of confidence I suppose.
Thats what judgement comes down to.
self confidence.
those who don't judge, are confident.
So i guess I am not self confident.
I am, to a certain extent.
Everyone has their flaws.
Most people worry about them.
How can I go about my daily life and not worry about them.

Let's try it.
I'll get back to you

<3

change is on its way.

NEW PRESIDENT.
BARACK OBAMA.
ITS TIME FOR A CHANGE.

Normal Bob Smith

Normal Bob Smith is a good friend of mine, I have known him for almost six years, and I am so proud of him, he took a silly little idea and blew it up, and now he is going somewhere with himself. It may not be the most conventional way to do things, and his ideas are extremely controversial, but all the same, he is an amazing person, and I think that more people should know about him. FOr those of you who are religious, this is not the thing for you. He makes the Jesus Dress up magnets that are sold in many of the Urban Outfitter stores, he is the creator of the "God Is Fake" fliers, and the founder of www.Normalbobsmith.com
He is also the founder of the Unholy Army of Catholic School Girls, which I was an original member of. He was in a documentary about the Bob Smiths across America, and he has funny comics about Jesus and Satan. If you live in the city and have been around Union Square then I am sure you have seen him or heard of him. Sometimes he dresses up as Satan, and does a fabulous job at it. I guess I just want people to check him out. Don't knock it till you try it. Within the next week or two there will be an interview with him. So stay tuned for that. These are some of the pictures from about five years ago when we took the city by surprise. Love you kids. <3

VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!!

I HOPE THAT EVERYONE MAKES A POINT OF VOTING!!!!!
TODAY IS THE DAY.TODAY COULD CHANGE OUR COUNTRY.
OUR COUNTRY NEEDS CHANGE.
SO GET OFF YOUR ASS AND GO VOTE!
Like I said the other day, this is probably the most important election of our time, and our generation is known for being lazy, but now is not the time to be lazy. I hope everyone votes, because every single vote counts. 

Im coming DOWN.

Bring me UP.

Take It Off.

Let's Just Touch.

-metro station

Social Junkie

I was told recently that I was a social butterfly, or better yet a social junkie. That I put my social life before anything else and that I thrive on meeting new people and making new friends.

I thought about it.

Is there a problem with that?

The last time I checked it was a good thing to want to be social and make new friends, and while I understand people's concerns about my priorities, they should fuck off. In all honesty, this is the prime time in my life right now, hello people! 

I am still young, and still in boring ass college, so now really is the best time to make new friends and meet new people. Don't be a hater. I am sorry if you are not as social as me. Although I pride myself on my bitchiness, I also pride myself on my friendliness and those two words are basically opposites. I am always down to meet new people, as long as someone is interesting. I hate boring people. I hate people who want to tell me their sad and miserable life story. I am a happy person, and I am not trying to be caught up with that bullshit and brought down.

On another note. I was thinking about my YouTube recently, and I have yet to decide if I want to be chatting to my computer and posting it online. Been there, and done that. But I suppose I am pretty bored, and this thing doesn't entertain me enough.

So going back to the first topic of interest, is there really anything wrong with being a social junkie. I definitely do thrive on meeting new people, but more importantly I thrive on surrounding myself with awesome people, and who wouldn't want to do that. I am not going to sit home and be sad and mopey with no friends. I want to be out, drink a little, listen to music, and meet new people. Go on some adventures. So that is just what I will be doing, and you sir are MORE than welcome to join me on my adventures. 

love always,

me <3

Election Day

Tomorrow is Election day. 

I voted on Saturday.

Good thing.

I didn't receive my absentee ballot in the mail.

I got it today, but I voted already so it doesn't matter.

I hope everyone votes.

I am not here to preach on one person or the other.

I am voting for Obama.

Everyone has their own opinions, but I think that people who choose not to vote are lame.

Don't be lazy.

Get off your ass and go vote.

This is probably the most important election of all time.

The first time a non white male has run for the presidency.

Times are changing, and I think it is about time that things change.

This is America.

Remember why people used to run away to America?

It was the land of freedom and opportunity.

What happened?

Halloween Bitches

It was a successful night.

Probably one of my most favorite Halloweens ever. 

we looked like hookers. my tights wouldnt stay up, so they ended up being more like socks. i think i broke my toe. i drank too much wine. but i love wine so much. 

Brooklyn rocked my world.

And I threw up on it.

It was an amazing and rough night to say the least. 

Don't remember how I got home.

I just know that I made it home. 

channel 11

So Its almost 2am and I was watching channel 11, which is CW. 

Some silly show called sex talk is on.

I have never wanted to laugh so hard in my laugh.

They are talking about how important sex is.

Which it is.

Good Sex is great.

Great sex is even better.

I remember the adventures.

The rush.

The chase.

These ladies say that you shouldn't stay with someone if the sex isnt great. True or false?

An affair?

How can people bring themselves to have an affair?

Why not just break it off and enjoy the single life if its what you are after?

I don't see why anyone would put another person through that, just for a little sex. 

If it ever came down to it, I think I would rather break it off, then make the person miserable and cheat on them. And fuck the person who is allowing themselves to be the side project. 

The women who are okay with it the ones who do it for the money and the nice presents. It makes me feel bad for them. 

Another thing I cannot stand is the trophy wives of America.  The dumb bitches who are good for nothing except maybe some sex, and live off of their man's money. What is that all about? 

Make you own damn money, and marry someone rich, isn't it better that way?

I want my own money. My own fame. My own life. I want to share it with someone, but in all honesty, don't really care if I do or don't.  

I miss the days of adventures.

I want a new adventure.

Anyone want to come on an adventure with me?

A little wine.

Everyone should have a drink on me. 

Loosen up a little.

Enjoy Life!

snow

Im in Oneonta. There is 3 inches of snow on the ground.  I love the snow. Its sooo pretty. But it is way too cold for october. Oh well. What are you gonna do. HALLOWEEN IS ON FRIDAY.

who is ready?

Parade.

Brooklyn.

The cutest puppy ever.

I adore my dog.

His name is Ziggy Buxton Marley

He is a mini pin.

He's a brat.

But he is too cute. 

When I got him he was 2.5 pounds.

Now he is 8.5 pounds, and I dont think he is growing.

He hates being cold.

He loves to snuggle with me.

He ruins all of my shoes, and I hate him for it.

He has eating every pair of flip flops I own.

I keep my betsey johnson's and Jimmy choos, in boxes on a high shelf.

He has the biggest brown eyes.

I love him to death. 

Everyone should meet him.

A little Bit About Me.

I love my mac. its great. my favorite feature is the photobooth. it leads to endless hours of fun. For those of you who haven't noticed. My favorite color is pink. Turquoise comes after that. They are both bright and fun colors and always leave me with a warm and fuzzy feeling inside. 

It's weird how random things can do that to you, maybe a favorite song, or a favorite pillow, or an activity. Sewing. It's amazing you can do whatever you want, make whatever you want. express yourself however you want. which is what I intend to do with my next project. Vests are cool and basic, but I want to do something outrageous. So stay tuned. 

On another note. Halloween is coming up. Im going to be Alice, and so are hundreds of other girls. But atleast I made my own costume and then after halloween it comes apart to be an obnoxious top and cute little skirt.  Good thing. That would have been a waste otherwise.  

     new drama in the city. some girls are so sad. they have nothing better to do with their lives. so they sit on their computers and hate on everyone else. it makes me laugh. i feel sorry for people like that. 

im off to do some more sewing. ill be back soon with some nifty new things to chat about.

Public Restrooms

So, over the past few days I have noticed that women tend to wash their hands after using the restroom if there is another person in the bathroom.  I sat in a stall the other day and picked me feet up to hide, and about four women just walked out.  Thats gross.  Everyone should wash their hands, no matter who the fuck is watching.  I think its quite funny though, how women are so concerned with what other women think.  I think what men don't realize is that when a girl gets dressed up, and asks you how she looks.  She isn't as concerned with what you really think, she's more concerned with what the women she may or may not encounter think.  Girls are judgemental.  But in a way, thats how we were raised.  With the magazines, and movies.  The dumb celebrities.  In the world today, women are basically told that they will never be as good as those women on tv. but in all honesty. fuck those women on tv. what are they really good at. so they have a nice face, or a nice body. who gives a crap? i sure as hell don't.  

My Favorite Place in Brooklyn. Currently.

SOUTHSIDE SPEAKEASY.  

its on s. 1st and roebling. amazing bar. love it. love the bartenders. they are amazing. they pride themselves on the cheapest booze in brooklyn. and I think I would agree. brings you back to your college days with keystone and such.  they have an outside area. small but cute and covered in amazing graf. The music is always changing, and they will put on just about anything.  Its a dim lit place, but all the better I suppose.  For those of you who live in the city. check it out. That is all for now. 

current song: METRO STATION- shake it!

p.s. cant get it out of my head. 

im self centered

Some people say I am self centered. But I am okay with that. I can be very self centered. But I love my friends and would do anything for them.  I would do anything for someone I truly care about. But right now, I can focus on me. Thats the whole point of a blog I suppose.  I am going to be starting my youtube vlogs again, when I do I will post them here, or post the link, and all of you little kidz can come and check me out. But for now. I was playing with my photobucket today and all of my pictures from photobooth. I made myself a slideshow. Of myself. With a silly techno song. Enjoy it.

hey there bitches

so here i am. and yes i am a glam bitch. i dont care what all you other bitches think. im hot and i know it. and for the record its all about feeling good about yourself. and i do. im not a size 2. nor do i want to be. music keeps me going. im materialistic and im okay with that. keep checking up for new and fun things. i need to go get ready. mwah bitches. <3